I know I’ve been really M.I.A. recently. 2017 had a bit of a bumpy start and long story short (which I hope to write about later on) it came with a lot of self-discovery and growth. During these past eight months I lost sight of who I was and what I wanted… and sometimes that can be embarrassing to admit. There’s a lot of pressure being in your early 20’s, having this expectation to be further along while seeing everyone else succeed and grow. I didn’t even know what I wanted to do anymore. So safe to say, I was pretty lost- and not the good kind of lost where it’s like, ‘Oh look… I’m going for a walk and I just stumbled into this beautiful field, how beautiful life can be!’ It was more like, ‘ how did I end up in some sketchy ass part of Manhattan, and why is my phone dead right now?!’ Kinda felt like Satan personally had it out for me for me. I’m not saying I’m not any more or less lost today, but now I admit it and I’ve accepted it. Sometimes we can push past things and come out just fine, but sometimes you have to just let life happen and ride with the chaos.
I recently celebrated my birthday and a couple days after, things just kind of fell into place. I realized that there are so many amazing people in my life who constantly love and support me. These people, who I am so grateful to have in my life, are also super badass who inspire and challenge me. No one is out here to see me fail except myself. I know you’re probably thinking, ‘Well no shit Sherlock!’ but hey I just had to have one of those cheesy moments to truly rediscover that strength. C’est la vie!
So what was I afraid of? As of right now, I still don’t have an answer to that but what I did do was pick my sorry ass up. I’ve made the decision that whatever I do, I do 100%. To find what motivates me and makes me happy, even if I suck at it at first. I let other people’s judgment and opinions get to me without even realizing it. It dulled my light – which is absolutely not okay.
I’d love to share this new journey with you guys if you’d like to follow along. I may not always be consistent or at 100%, but I’ll get there eventually 🙂
In the meantime, I’m gonna mix some crazy prints together, and strut with some real fucking confidence with a huge smile on my face.
Also don’t be afraid to mix prints. It feels ridiculous for a hot second but then you realize how badass you look, and then you feel invincible- I guess you can relate that back to life!
If you were like, ‘ Okay… I clicked on this post to see where this bitch got this outfit?!’ You can find my pants here!, Unfortunately, my bomber jacket was from last season Zara… but here are some similar ones from Aritizia, and Anthropology. The tank, which everyone needs a basic silk tank is Theory. Seriously I have this tank in every single color.
P.S. Check out Bri Elledge’s work, she’s incredible!